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She couldn't tell if he was being serious, or if he was simply messing around with her, as he often did. His eyes had a desperate glint, his lips were pulled into a nervous line—but then, he'd always been good at acting in various ways to get what he wanted, though the last thing she'd expected him to feign was insomnia.

"Come on, Francis," she said, giving him a doubtful look. She folded her arms across her chest and studied his anxious expression, trying to gauge its genuineness. "You're not really having trouble falling asleep, are you? Don't you usually sleep like a log?"

"J'ai eu un cauchemar," he murmured. His gaze dropped to the floor, and he shifted his weight from one foot to the other. "I can't sleep now."

Her heart softened at his uncharacteristically hesitant tone, and she relaxed a little, leaning back against the wall. "What was the nightmare about?" she asked, gentling her own voice.

He shook his head, furrowing his brow slightly. "Je ne peux pas te dire. C'est un secret."

"Alors, comment puis-je t'aider?"

"Let me sleep with you. Not—not like that. Just…" He took a few tentative steps towards her, closing the gap between them, until they were a millimeter away from contact, from mouth-to-mouth resuscitation. "I'll behave," he whispered, into her ear. "Je promets."

She tilted her head back to see his face, feeling a blush creep into her cheeks when her eyes met his. Under the melancholy glow of the moon through the window behind him, his features looked even more beautiful than they usually did, and she found herself wanting to touch his hair, which was nearly translucent backlit by the stars.

"What's in a promise?" she asked, abruptly, attempting to distract herself from the skipping of her heart. "A promise is just words, and where's the value in words?"

"Maybe there isn't any value. Words are nothing, really, if you think about it."

"Then how can you promise me anything at all?"

"J'espère que tu trouves un sens dans mes mots. Words are the only way to communicate the nothing we have, in hopes someone will see something in our nothing and make something out of it." He drew in a sudden ragged breath that startled her, and before she could react, he reached out to wrap his arms around her waist, pulling her towards him. She tensed, getting ready to push him away, but then she noticed he was shivering—she was shivering, too, she realized; they'd let the warmth of their beds dissipate into the night.

"Francis…" she began, struggling to make sense of what he'd said.

"Please," he breathed, his voice thready. "Let's just go to sleep together. I won't do anything."

"Francis—"

"Don't say no. J'ai besoin de toi."

"Pas 'je t'aime'?" she said, half-confused, half-flustered, both her heart and head in chaos.

He didn't reply; instead, he tightened his grip around her, nearly lifting her off the floor, and opened the door to her room. Then he led her inside, made his way to her bed, and slipped under her covers, before reaching out and pulling her down with him. A gasp of surprise escaped her lips as she fell, but he caught her in his arms and drew her towards him before she hit the mattress. The pounding of her heart filled her head, and for a few minutes, she couldn't hear herself breathe—wasn't even sure if she was breathing at all, because it felt like Francis had stolen the air straight out of her lungs.

When she finally collected herself, she said, a little shakily, "I don't understand. How will being with me help you forget your nightmare and sleep?"

"I don't understand either," he said, giving her a tired smile. "Mais je n'ai pas besoin de comprendre. Some things can't be understood."

"Like love?" she tried.

"Like anything that's beyond reason."

"Is love really beyond reason? Isn't it psychological? Isn't it—"

"Love," he interrupted, gazing down at her with his clear blue eyes, "is lovelier when it can't be explained, when we know nothing of it, and see everything in it."

She opened her mouth to counter his argument, and then changed her mind and let out a sigh instead, too exhausted to question anything any further. "Have you ever considered being a philosopher?" she asked, stifling a yawn. She settled into his arms and allowed herself to enjoy the warmth of having him next to her.

He chuckled quietly. "I don't think a philosopher would agree with what I've said."

"No, you're right. You're just a romantic."

"Quoi?" he said, pretending to be insulted. "I'm not 'just a romantic,' chérie. I'm not a romantic. Period."

"Oh, really?" She arched an eyebrow, unable to help the smile that surfaced at his ridiculous posturing. He brushed a stray strand of her out of her face and tucked it behind her ear, his hand lingering against her cheek before slipping back under the covers to hold her.

"I'm just in love," he said, simply. "And love makes a romantic out of us all."

She felt her pulse quicken for the third time, and finally gave in. "Maybe it does," she murmured, to herself. "Maybe it does..."

"Bonne nuit," he whispered.

"Good night," she said, closing her eyes.

"Je t'aime."


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"En amour, écrire est dangereux, sans compter que c'est inutile."
(In love, writing is dangerous, not to mention pointless).
-Alexandre Dumas Fils
A typical nightmare-themed fanfic, though hopefully, I managed to explore some less typical themes. I totally wrote this just to make use of my withering French (please pardon any mistakes I may have made!) And once again, I tried to cram some random musings into a fanfic; I think the story is really incoherent, which is partially why I included the quote at the end. It can act as a disclaimer or an excuse XD. I'm not too fond of this one, but after I wrote it...I thought...I might as well post it...Maybe you can find some meaning in my words? OTL.

Regardless of my feelings towards this, hope you enjoyed reading it!

For more angst (CanadaxReader): [link] XD


Translations:
J'ai eu un cauchemar: I had a nightmare.
Je ne peux pas te dire. C’est un secret: I can't tell you. It's a secret.
Alors, comment puis-je t’aider?: Then how can I help you?
Je promets: I promise.
J’espère que tu trouves un sens dans mes mots: I hope you will find a meaning in my words.
J'ai besoin de toi: I need you.
Pas 'je t'aime'?: Not 'I love you'?
Mais je n'ai pas besoin de comprendre: But I don't need to understand.

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Story © Jenny Ge
Hetalia © Himaruya Hidekaz
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MusicAndArtRocker Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
"Words are the only way to communicate the nothing we have, in hopes someone will see something in our nothing and make something out of it."

...I think Francis would make a great philosopher, myself. I really love this story; it shows Francis' other side you never get to see: philosopher, kind, loving without trying to rape you, polite...I just love it.
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peapod1281 Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2013  Student Artist
:iconyayfranceplz: yay
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SherlockedHazza Featured By Owner Apr 2, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Finally! Someone who can write french properly! :iconeheplz: sorry, I'm from Quebec and I get irritated easily with these things.. Great story though! :D
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livewithout Featured By Owner May 16, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you very much! I'm glad my French was correct! :')
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YuukiHinamori Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2013
As a French-Canadian, I must say that your french translation is absolutely perfect :) I enjoy reading fanfictions without cringing to every french mistake, and you didn't make even one! That was a truly beautiful story :) Please make more!
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livewithout Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks! I took French throughout high school, so I have to thank those four years for my semi-decent French. :')

I'm glad you liked the story! I will definitely write more when I have time. :')
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Enbi-to-Miruku Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2013  Student General Artist
You. Are. A. Truly. Talented. Writer.

Not only your portrait of Francis is the most exact, accurate and in character I've ever seen, you also actually put thoughts in your writing. The philosophy bits work really well with the theme and perfectly fit the pacing of your story. And last but not least, as a Frenh learner, I highly appreciate the fact that you got the French correctly.

You know, I love it when I can see some kind of message from the author when I read fanfictions/reader inserts. I really wonder, at times, if people only write for the fan-servicey scenes. Stories like this one are hard to find. I love it so much, and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for writing something so inspiring.

Using the quote as a 'disclaimer' like that is awesomely clever of you, I must add. I truly admire you. I might not be the one to talk, but still, I think that you've got potentials as a writer. You could become famous one day.

Sorry, I rambled didn't I? With that terrible grammar of mine too. I'm just a random reader here, but, you know what, your story is so deep and beautiful that I couldn't help but stop by and tell you how much I am in love with your story.

Yes I rambled again. Sorry.
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livewithout Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh my god, you have just inflated my ego to epic proportions LOL. Truly, I think I'm about to explode. Thank you so, so, so much for your very kind comments. I hardly think I'm deserving of them, but they've made my day, anyway. I really try my best to incorporate atypical themes into my fanfics, and I'm happy you've recognized that! You words really mean a lot to me, especially because I'm never absolutely confident in my writing. :')

As an aside, rambling is totally cool with me. I ramble all the time. I think I'm rambling now. Your grammar is near perfect, so no worries there!

Once again, thank you for taking the time to comment! :')
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AikoSukoshi Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2012
ohmaigod.

marry me.
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animeluver222 Featured By Owner Dec 4, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I have no idea who Francis is, but really, are you the god of literature? Another Shakespeare? Another Nicholas Sparks? God, this is just beautiful and heart-felt. It's amazing and poetic and you used such difficult words. You make me jealous.

I love this, it deserves a DD or a nobel prize.
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livewithout Featured By Owner Dec 4, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh my gosh, my ego is so big right now, I can hardly contain it--you're too kind!

Thank you very much for the lovely compliments! I'm glad you liked the story! :')

//Francis is the personification of France, the country, in Hetalia, this anime that revolves around humanized versions of countries. ; u ;
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animeluver222 Featured By Owner Dec 4, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Haha. NP. Love the story.

No problem dear, just saying what was true.

Ooooh, I see, thank you.
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Cutiebat99 Featured By Owner Dec 1, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh god. What are you? Shakespere? God, I love this. Its extremely poetic.
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livewithout Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm so flattered, I can't even.
Thank you for your kind words! >w<
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TheAnswer-FortyTwo Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2012
Wow... Somehow you turned France into a heartfelt, sincere, starry-eyed romantic without making him insanely out of character and used intelligent, sophisticated language without sounding like a douche... Ten out of ten.
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livewithout Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
XD I'm glad you liked it! I think most of what you mentioned was subconscious on my part, so I can't take too much credit for it? (Can you take credit for something you did subconsciously? lol). Thank you for your kind words! :')
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TheAnswer-FortyTwo Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2012
Yes, you can take subconscious credit. You got rights to your own brain.... And no problem, I meant every one.
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TheUltimateHetaku Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2012
wow oh my god, this was so cute.... >w< i thought since it was a france fanfic, it would HAVE to include some naughty stuff, but i found something muuuch better xD

sofluffylol
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livewithout Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
XD Glad you liked it! Maybe I will write one that has naughty stuff one day...hehehehe...
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TheUltimateHetaku Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2012
yay! thank you~~ i'll look forward to that :D
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Just-Me143 Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
This is really well written! Also, congrats, this hit the second page :D
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livewithout Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you very much! ; u ; And hurray! :')
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Ursixa-the-dragon Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
This is really well written and beautiful :)
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livewithout Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks! :3
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whovian143 Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
This is so beautiful. And your french is amazing! I enjoy this France story!
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livewithout Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
X3 Well, I don't know if it's amazing, but it would appear it's passable! Thank you for the compliment!
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flotus-17 Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012  Student Artist
AWWWWWWW I LOVE THIS SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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livewithout Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
That icon is so cute! ; u ;
Glad you liked it!
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flotus-17 Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012  Student Artist
:iconletmehugyouplz:
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livewithout Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
LOLOL :iconhugglezplz:
Not nearly as awesome as your icon, but still.
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ColorPunkPrincess Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2012  Student General Artist
This is the best Francés story ever!! God I just love you lol :iconsqueeeeplz:
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livewithout Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
XDXD :iconglompplz:
Thank you for your love lol.
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bookwormchick Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
this is gorgeous and wonderful and perfect! the french transitions perfectly and this is how Francis would act. He's not a crazy rapist (at least in my headcanon) he just loves physical contact because it makes him feel safe or wanted. He wouldn't be too proud to ask a thing like this because it's his character to. And the reader has reasonable reactions to the situation. She (or he) doesn't rush into anything and is reasonably wary. You've taken an over-used plot and made a fantastic story out of it, truly, bravo!
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livewithout Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Aw, I'm so flattered you think so! I totally agree with you on your characterization of France; he's definitely not a rapist at all (not entirely sure why people would write him that way...).

I'm glad you liked the story! Thanks! :')
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Arcainna Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2012
Beyond the fact that this is really adorable, what I liked most about this is your quote :"Love is lovelier when it can't be explained, when we know nothing of it, and see everything in it" and the small little debate they had.
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livewithout Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
; u ;
I'm glad you liked that quote! I think it's true. :')

And thank you for your kind words! :')
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Arcainna Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012
Of course! Thank you for making it something more then a cliched Hetalia story ^-^
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AshitaUchiha Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2012
Thank you. Thank you for having correct French grammar. I read SO many of these with France with gender confusion and incorrect verb tenses. Nice use of the subjunctive, by the way. (:

Now, about the story itself, I found it sweet without being too saccharine, and it had a good pacing to it. I liked both of the characters, so good job!
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livewithout Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
LOL I took four years of French in high school, so I've got some background knowledge of it, though it's still a relief to hear that I didn't completely slaughter the language XD. Thanks!

And thank you for your kind words! :')
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AshitaUchiha Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012
Hey, me too! :D And no problem. You did just fine!
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AshenhartKrie Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
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holy.....
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livewithout Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Er, thanks? XD
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AshenhartKrie Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
You're an amazing write. ^_^ So you're welcome.
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SpartanGinger Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2012  Student General Artist
I thought that was quite beautiful ^ ^ (I also like how clean it was 8D)
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livewithout Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you very much! :')
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chibiphlosion Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm not sure if anyone has posted the link to the original image, but I think I found it.

[link]

It is by a Pixiv user who calls themselves おつお. This was found using Google Images [link].
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livewithout Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for finding it! Jeebus, I'm in your debt; I took down the pic already, though, because I think you need permission from the artist to use it; you can't just link to their site (or so I've been told).

;__;
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chibiphlosion Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Yeah, it's always best to ask the artist directly; not everyone likes their stuff posted even if credit has been given. Perhaps you could ask some Hetalia artists here, if they'd be willing to let you use their art as a cover for your fanfics. You might be able to find people who will take requests, but it's hard.
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livewithout Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Yep, it's definitely better to ask the artist. I'll probably just end up drawing my own previews if I ever have the time X3. Thanks again for your help, though!
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CrumpetMuncher Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This makes me very happy because France isn't a pervert all the time, he is the country of love after all.
:iconpuppyyayplz: It's really in character and I love it~
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